Friday, June 12, 2009
Keeping it real
O.k. thought I'd share this incredibly good video about adoption because it's been weighing on my mind a ton. It's hard to explain how painful life has been lately with another adoption taking soooooo long in China and opportunities coming our way but, not being right for our family has left me a little...shall we say in the "baby blues". It doesn't help that Jessica has been feeling it too. The other day she was going on strike until she got a baby brother or sister. We are entirely blessed with our little Jess but, sometimes it is sooo hard to be happy for it seems everyone around us is having a baby except us. I've been to a few baby showers lately and I think my sister put it extremely well. She said, "It's like re-opening a wound," everytime I go to one. Yet, I cannot be so selfish as not to be truly happy for those being blessed with children. I surely would not want anyone to go through the heart ache we feel at times.
Sorry about the pity party on the first entry in weeks but, I guess I'm just keeping it real. Life is good and I am grateful for all I have but, sometimes life just stinks too!!!!!!
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Oh Kim....I am so sorry. I think that sometimes I forget how difficult it must be for you because you NEVER seem down! You are always so happy and laughing, yet I know that you have hurt as much as you have laughed. I don't understand why children are given to some and not to others or taken from some and not from others. I guess that is why we are taught about faith. I know that you have an incredible amount of faith and a huge testimony and know that things will happen in Heavenly Father's time. In the meantime you have so many people who love and care for you and are praying for you and Jon and Jessica to be able to have another baby in your home. Whatever baby that turns out to be is going to be so lucky. I cannot imagine the amount of love that has been building up for that very special baby!!!!!
I really enjoyed this post, because you are right, we do have to acknowledge that life isnt' always what we want. I remember when you adopted Jessica. We were all so excited. And I pray all the time that you can adopt again soon. I can't wait to have another little cousin, and they will be the luckiest kid in the world to be part of your family. I love you so much Aunt Kim! You are a great example to me and so many other people.
Hey Kim! I can't wait for therapy on Wednesday. I look forward to it every summer! I feel your pain so much. It's not something you can describe to people who aren't going through it with you. I love you and am looking forward to our therapy sessions!
Natalie said it perfect. I heard a little thought that said, "Today's test is tomorrow's testimony." I loved this because it sums up how things are right now. Good luck! We'll keep you in our prayers.
Kim, i can't imagine what you guys are going through. I know someday hopefully SOON your prayers will be answered. You and john are the BEST parent's to jessica. We could not ask for a better neighbors. We love you guys so much:)
And to answer your question, it was not your cat it was the other one:) It was time for the birds to venture out on there own plus i was getting sick of all the POOP!
You guys are in our prayers.
I totally get what you are saying. It is painful, and hopefully this something good will come from this wait. My heart breaks for all of us during this wait. Hopefully it won't be much longer.
Kim, I Love You! xoxo
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